I realize as I am getting older, that things I loved to do have changed, I just turned 30 in April of this year. First thing is hanging with my friends, I love hanging with them but lately not so much. It's like I'm intruding on their lives, many of my friends are married, so have children. I have neither. I feel that I'll never have a family of my own. I'm just fighting now to make ends meet financially. Maybe I was destined to have a not normal life.
Second thing is I'm starting to want to do things by myself, want things quiet and peaceful, that is hard when living with people. My dream is to have a house as far away as possible in the woods where selective people know. But it's just a dream. The third is going places, like the mall or crowded places, I kind of panic when I'm in places where a lot of people hang. Before, I didn't care but now it just crazy.
Lastly, I just feel about giving up, and moving to another state or maybe country. And starting a new. Because there is nothing here for me. All of my friends have moved on, but hang with me when they have time. I just don't know anymore. Even right now as I sit here at work, which I sitting here waiting for work to do. I just want to leave. I'm getting tired all the time. Well ... More to come
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